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Some peonies came across my walk today. You inspired me to draw them. ❤️

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I hope you do draw them.

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May 22Liked by Jenna Park

What a beautiful poignant essay.

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Thank you, Cindy.

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Beautiful. Your depiction of the peonies, in both word and gold-sparkled image, speaks to me as a realm of /potential/ for humanity and love in life and relationships. While often unrealized or even betrayed in our waking lives, it’s there just the same.

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Thank you so much, Dave. I really appreciate the comment. ❤️

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May 22Liked by Jenna Park

Thank you for sharing this piece of your life and reflection with us - I found it incredibly healing

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Thank you so much for reading.

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This is lovely, Jenna. Every day that I wake up and my octogenarian parents are still alive, is a good day. I know the day will come when they won't be. For me, it's certain trees that I associate with them. There's a lot of tree symbolism in my family. Thank you for sharing this story.

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To live into your 80s should be celebrated, yes! Thank you Amanda.

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Sigh. So much beauty here. Thank you for sharing. PS. I have peonies in my garden. One I purchased and planted and the other was here blooming when I moved in over 20 years ago. I’ve moved it five times, left it in a pot for a couple years, and still it keeps going.

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We've got quite a container garden going and I'm curious about growing peonies myself. I find that I've been trying to grow some of the plants from his garden that I've been missing.

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May 23Liked by Jenna Park

Your sketched and painted peonies are breathtaking! I feel the same way about these magnificent blooms. They're incredible, aren't they? Thank you for sharing and reflecting so deeply. This is a beautiful piece.

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Thank you Maria!

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May 23Liked by Jenna Park

interesting how you wrote about peonies. yesterday, I had cut white peonies from my mother's yard. Then i had to take it outside because of ants. The scent is so good though.

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And the ants were huge! Big glossy ones. Yes, I always thought these particular kind had such a nice scent. The ones that turned white, not so much!

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Absolutely beautiful, Jenna. I love peonies too and their fleeting, delicate nature only make them more beautiful and melancholic to me somehow. Thank you for sharing 💕

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Natalie, thank you. The petals on this variety drop so fast if you're not careful - like a day after purchase!

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May 23Liked by Jenna Park

I have those white but red on the inside peonies on my dining table, and the red ones that fade into a light peach in my living room. I, too, have a complicated relationship with my dad (still living). Your words manage to strike a perfect balance between the weight of disappointment and hurt with the air of being able to see it for what it is and to continue on.

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I think so many people do. I'm sure it's healthier to cut out the person from your life, but I'm sure not the easier route. Work, either way.

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Such a beautiful essay. Thank you for talking about this subject of parents who are hard to love, I hope someday I can express my sadness and frustration over this subject, it’s hard to get past the self-judgment and the sense that no one else has these complicated feelings. I love your newsletter!

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Beautiful story, and beautiful flowers that have such a delicate scent. They always remind be about my childhood and parents.

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Thank you, Tanya.

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"I just didn’t know that I would be getting a dramatic show this year. I felt like I was witnessing the arc of life and death." I really liked this sentiment because I feel very similarly about flowers. I'm hesitate to buy them, but when I do or when they are gifted to me, this is the lesson I always receive.

Appreciate you sharing these thoughts with us.

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Thank you, Kelisha. So many life metaphors with enjoying the beauty of flowers, aren't there?

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Jun 4Liked by Jenna Park

Thanks for sharing this essay! Your sketch of the peonies is simply beautiful!

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Thank you so much for reading!

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